Weakness awakens avarice in others. Learn from your mistakes, after all, they are the only thing here we can truly call our own. Either you didn't live up to your part of the bargain of your new employer...or you did. Figure out which one and believe it good or bad. As you said, it might simply be a product of the economy and they took the chicken poop rout of blaiming you for their inability to pay you...or, they told you the truth. You can be your best critic, truly look at yourself and find what others saw in you and your work. If you cannot find improvement, look harder. There is an old saying in this business, either you have been fired or you haven't been fired yet! Stop feeling sorry for yourself, the mourning is over, get your ass out there and work! It could be anything, look up Craigs list in Kansas under crew or Mandy.com in Kansas, what ever the gig...you need reassurance; if it's a small gig so be it. Stop whining and get back on the horse...to quote David S. Goyer from Batman Begins, "Why do we fall, ....so we can learn to pick ourselves up!"